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Where are the answers?

We all have moments of crisis. We all have times when we are overwhelmed by what life has just brought to us. We all have real-life, human emotions. And it’s ok to say it.

In Jeremiah 37, the people of Judah were facing a real life battle. But here’s the rub; and here is where the enemy wins, our anxiety, anger, sadness, or other things overtake us, and we veer further off course than we meant or needed to:

Just like the people of Judah, we look for our conclusive help in the wrong place.

They looked to the army of Egypt to save them. But God was there all the time, and had been from the beginning, trying to get them to turn to Him. Yet they refused.

We do it, too. Proverbs 20:7 says, “Some nations boast of their chariots and horses, but we boast in the name of the Lord our God.”

The Lord had saved them time and time again, but they kept forgetting, and way too often not even giving Him credit. Sound familiar? ūüė¨

Proverbs 44:6-8, “I don’t depend on my arrows or my sword to save me. But You saved us from our hateful enemies, and You put them to shame. We boast about You, our God, and we are always grateful.”

My, oh my. Why do we continue to look to ourselves, to others, and to outside sources for the answer, the solution, or the salvation? It is God that fights, God that has the answers, and God that is Faithful.

He protects, shields, defends, provides, supplies, heals, comforts, creates, fights, gives wisdom, gives knowledge, gives understanding, unifies, loves, breathes life. There is literally nothing He can’t do!

The answers we seek? They lie in Him.

We saw the mountain, in the photo, when we were in TN. I mentioned that it reminded me of when Moses was on the mountain talking to God, and it was covered in cloud and smoke. My son said, “Maybe someone’s up there talking to God.” ‚̧ԳŹ Maybe they were. I sure hope so. That’s what we all need to do.

You are loved,



Broken, but not forsaken

I heard a sermon on Sunday night that reminded us that a lot of times before we go into a season of being given out to be used by the Lord we go through a season of being broken, like bread.

I keep thinking about that, and what I love about God is that during that time when we are broken, He doesn’t allow us to be broken into crumbs and spread out in such a way that we cannot be whole again.¬† If we are like bread, He continues to hold the 2 pieces in His 2 capable hands the entire time, ensuring that we are well and cared-for, never alone, or truly crumbled; and we are never crushed!¬† Sometimes we feel that way, but all the while, He is holding us.¬† We are in his hands.¬† We are safe, and when it passes, He will use that time of brokenness as a way for us to minster to the people in our lives.

He never lets go!

“He makes me whole again, steering¬†me off worn, hard paths¬†to roads where¬†truth and righteousness echo His name.”¬† Ps. 23:3

You are held,


Be usable during the trials

Laying block with oxygen.¬† What’s stopping you??

My father was bed-ridden for several years, and then weak for several more.¬† Why not healed?¬† One night the Lord spoke to him and told him to build a house for someone he’d never met.¬† He wasn’t able to in his own strength.¬† The Lord also spoke to the pastor at his church and told him to give away a substantial amount of money.¬† He spoke to another man and told him to donate land.¬† Person after person stepped forward, obeying God’s leading, and a home was built for a family from start to finish in 40 days.

My dad’s weakness enabled God’s strength to be perfected and manifested.¬† Might I suggest that before that time my dad may have been too busy to hear the voice of God in that way?¬† Or too busy to take the time to help organize and attend a project of that magnitude?

God uses us all in different ways and for different reasons.  We just have to be available for His purposes and plans.

“Go, for he is a chosen vessel of Mine to bear My name before Gentiles, kings, and the children of Israel.¬† For I will show him how many things he must suffer for My name’s sake.”

These are the words the Lord spoke to the disciple that was sent to put his hands on Saul (who would later become the apostle Paul–missionary to thousands), when he would regain his sight.¬† And yet, Paul always had what he called a “thorn in his flesh” that God never removed.¬† He said he prayed for the Lord to remove it and the Lord told him no.¬† The Lord told Paul that His grace was sufficient and that His strength would be made perfect in Paul’s weakness.

It’s interesting that when Paul was called into ministry he was shown how many things he would suffer God’s name’s sake, and how the Lord told Paul no, and how now, in 2019 we think our Christian walk should be about our comfort, our happiness, our delight….about us.¬† When did things get so twisted?

Christianity just simply isn’t about us.¬† It is about the Lord.¬† It says about Saul, “Immediately he preached the Christ in synagogues, that He is the Son of God.”¬† He began immediately doing what he was called to do, and people immediately began wanting to kill him.¬† (You can find all of this in Acts 9)

Job, in his agony and suffering repented and humbled himself before the Lord…before he was ever healed or restored.¬† Then, in Job 42:8, the Lord put Job in charge of praying for his friends.¬† In his state, he was best suited to pray for his friends.¬† He was the one God called to pray, to work, to do His will.¬† And then, praise God for him, He was restored.

Sickness and trials are not a problem that keeps us from fulfilling God’s call in our lives.¬† It may hinder us from doing all the things we want.¬† I know I still have times when I can’t sing, can’t raise my hands in worship, can’t teach or even attend church; however, if we are still alive then God can still use us.

Ask God how He can use your vessel.¬† When He gives you an opportunity, don’t let it pass you by.¬† Don’t fear that you’re too weak.¬† In your weakness, His strength is made perfect.¬† It has been proven over and over:¬† see David and Goliath, Noah and the Ark, 3 Hebrew’s in the furnace, on and on.¬† God will give you all that you need to complete the task He sets before you.

Be available just as you are,



On their behalf

In yesterday’s blog, I talked about how we should show love to those in pain and trials and not offer judgment and accusations, in the way that Job’s friends did.¬† I also mentioned how we can pray for those we know who are in pain.¬† I wanted to talk more on that today, because that is probably the one of the most important things we can do, and yet sometimes we neglect it.

In Matthew 8:5-13, we find the record of Jesus and a centurion.¬† The centurion’s servant was lying at home paralyzed, and in terribly agony and pain.¬† (Some versions of the Bible say he was dreadfully tormented.¬† yikes!)

The centurion came to Jesus, asking Him to heal his servant.¬† This story is powerful in so many ways.¬† If you haven’t read it in a while, or ever, I encourage you to read it.

The centurion knew, and acknowledged that Jesus was powerful enough that He need only speak the word and His servant could be healed.¬† He didn’t even require that Jesus come to his home to do it.¬† He knew Jesus could do it from right where He stood.

And this is the part I want to stress:¬† The centurion’s faith alone was great enough that Jesus marveled at it.¬† (vs. 10)¬† The servant’s faith was never called into question.¬† Perhaps his was just as great.¬† Maybe it wasn’t.¬† All we know is that the centurion interceded on the servant’s behalf, and that the servant was healed that same hour.

We are called not only to love our neighbors as ourselves, but also to pray for one another that we may be healed. (Ja. 5:16)

Unless they’ve told us it’s the case, we never need to tell someone that they aren’t being healed or delivered from their trial because their faith isn’t strong enough.¬† We need to intercede on their behalf.¬† We never need to accuse someone of being sick or in trials due to sin, but we need to pray for them.

What the centurion did on his servant’s behalf is an excellent example of how we should live.¬† Job, as well, before his children died, offered up offerings to the Lord just in case his children had sinned.¬† These are excellent examples of people who are going to the Lord on behalf of others.

Not everyone will be healed.  Is that hard to hear?  God has plans for people that sometimes do not include healing, because He uses people in so many different ways.  But that should never stop us from asking.  We do not know His plans.  We need to ask.  We need to seek.

Above all, though, what we need to seek, for ourselves and for each other, is a relationship with Him, which will keep us calm in every storm, every trial, and every sickness.

Let’s be interceders and never accusers,


Oh, such pain!

I’m reading the conversations between Job and his friends right now in the book of Job.¬† It’s so uncomfortable for me because I have scars from comments people have made to me during my own health issues the last few years…even while I was down at the altar seeking God’s face.

Job asked his friends why they were tormenting him with their accusations and insults.  I know Job was a man, but I have to wonder if he cried because of what they said?  I usually just cry.  ha!

I’m not sure what it is about health issues or major trials that opens up the doorway to make others think they should step in and offer up judgment instead of encouragement, but it’s sad.¬† When someone is going through pain and trials, the last thing they need is added pain.

Sickness in someone’s life does not automatically mean they’ve sinned or haven’t asked, in faith, to be healed.¬† Trials in someone’s life does not mean they have not been generous to the poor or have angered God.

What do those in pain or those in the midst of a trial need?¬† They need love.¬† They need compassion.¬† They need an ear to listen.¬† They need prayer.¬† If you know specifically of sin in their life, you can offer help, but if you don’t, then don’t accuse.¬† People who are hurting need comfort.¬† They need a friend.

Take them a meal.¬† Babysit their kids or pay for someone else to do it.¬† Pay for someone to clean their house for them.¬† Go sit with them when they can’t get out of bed.¬† Pray with them.¬† Give them a hug.¬† Wash their car.¬† Offer to do something else you know will bless them.¬† Do something to bless them, but don’t add to their pain.

I am so blessed by Job.¬† He did curse the day he was born…that’s understandable, since he¬†was in immense pain…but he was never so discouraged that he allowed his friends to turn mind away from trusting God.

For any Christian in pain, that’s critical.¬† We can’t turn our hearts away from trusting in God.¬† As Christians, we cannot be the ones to cause pain.¬† Our lives are supposed to represent God’s love.¬† If God’s love looks like judgment and accusations, especially in a trial or painful time in someone’s life, it will make it so hard for them to trust in Him.

As Christians, it is imperative that we operate in love, encouragement, and in prayer.  Jesus said we should love the Lord our God with all our heart all our soul all our strength and all our mind; and we should love our neighbor as ourselves.  What if you were the one in pain?  What would you want to hear?  What if you were in that trial?  What would you need?

We must go and do likewise,



Seeking faith with the wise

Pr. 13:20:¬† “He who walks with wise men will be wise, but the companion of fools will be destroyed.”

So, yesterday I admitted that God corrected me for doubting.  Am I alone in that?  I have asked God to increase my faith.  Maybe you guys are already full of faith.

See, it’s not that I doubt that God is able.¬† My goodness, if He can split the Red Sea, He can heal me.¬† If He can send so much fire from heaven that it burns up Elijah’s offering, including the wood, the rock altar, the ground around the altar, and the water in the ditch, He can do anything!¬† I believe He is the God of the Bible.

I believe He is the God that led David’s stone into Goliath’s forehead.¬† I believe He is the God who kept Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego from even smelling of smoke when they were thrown into the fiery furnace.¬† I believe He is the same God who kept Paul from even getting sick when he was bit by a poisonous viper.

I believe He is the same God today that He was even then!

The trouble I have had in the past is when it comes to His will.  Does He desire for me to be healed?  Paul prayed 3 times to be delivered from the thorn in his flesh and the Lord told him no.  The Lord told Him that His grace was sufficient and that His strength was made perfect in weakness.

What I have found since 2012, when I first became afflicted, is that God’s grace is indeed sufficient.¬† And although I fought it so many times at first, His strength is made most perfect in my weakness.¬† I can honestly say that I could not have been brought to the place I am with God had I not gone through what I have.¬† I can truly say, “what the enemy meant for evil, God has used for good.”

Does that mean that I can’t ask for healing and have the faith that it’s still possible?¬† No.¬† And in my Bible study of faith what better place to start than Heb. 11?¬† I want to walk with wise men, like this proverb says.¬† I want to walk with the hall-of-famers of faith!¬† I’m going to start there and keep walking.¬† I’m going to keep believing and keep increasing in my faith.

Now faith is the confidence in what we hope for…


Correction from the Lord

Pr. 12:1:¬† “Whoever loves instruction loves knowledge, but he who hates correction¬†is¬†stupid.”

We went to a revival service last night and the Lord corrected me.¬† As the evangelist was giving his altar call, when I should have been preparing to come down and pray for healing, I was doubting.¬† The Holy Spirit gave out a message and literally asked me, “After all this, are you still doubting?¬† After all you’ve seen me do?”¬† Tears poured down my face.¬† He was right.

I have no problem worshiping the King of Kings and Great I Am.¬† Simply because of who He is, He is worthy.¬† Just because He is Lord, He deserves my praise.¬† But sometimes I still struggle with doubt.¬† Does He want healing for me?¬† Is that His will?¬† I haven’t asked Him for healing in a while because I decided to be content with the life I’ve been given.¬† However, as I went to the altar last night, asking for forgiveness for my doubt, I also asked the Lord to increase my faith.¬† I asked the Lord to have mercy on me and heal me.¬† I am believing He has heard my prayer and am placing my faith in His power!

I am going to begin studying my Bible specifically for faith and seeking an increase in my faith, so for today I am going to remind myself of some of the faithful ways the Lord has shown Himself Lord over my life.

  • He spared me from being raped by a boyfriend when I was 15
  • He saved me from suicide a few months later
  • He has always given me a job when I needed one
  • He introduced me to the most unlikely man who would end up being my godly husband, at the most unexpected moment in my life.¬† That man brought me back to the Lord.
  • When I was 23 and low on money, he sent me a co-worker with a box of food, complete with homemade Christmas goodies¬† ūüôā
  • When my father was bedridden with a terminal diagnosis, the Lord delivered him and got him out of that bed to continue on with life
  • He delivered my father from prostate cancer
  • He delivered my sister-in-law from breast cancer
  • As my husband and I have paid our tithes throughout our marriage, the Lord has always met our needs
  • He has provided clothing for our children through friends throughout most of their childhood
  • He saved me and then didn’t give up on me when I went astray.¬† He has forgiven me over and over again
  • He gave me 2 beautiful children that I never deserved, through His grace and His mercy.

This is just the tip of the iceburg of the many ways the Lord has shown Himself faithful over to me over the years.  He is the same God today that He was yesterday.  He will be the same God tomorrow!  I will continue to remember all that He has done for my family and me as I think of His goodness.

Increasing in faith,


You are qualified to minister!

Why is it that our imperfections make us feel as though we are unqualified to minister?

Logically, we know that no one is perfect.¬† When it comes to ourselves; however, we have this harsh standard of judgment that we hold ourselves up against.¬† We think our imperfections are too imperfect.¬† If people only knew…¬† Why would anyone want to listen to us…¬† What makes us so special or all-knowing…

Let me tell you this.¬† Your imperfections are Exactly what make you qualified to minister.¬† It is because you are imperfect that you know how to relate to the imperfections of others.¬† It is because of your past trials that you understand what others are going through.¬† It is precisely because of the pain you’ve experienced that you can speak to another’s pain.

No hurting person wants to be ministered to by someone who acts like their own life is perfect and that nothing has ever gone wrong for them.  We always relate much more to people who are real and have scars, just like us .

Having gone through your trials, your pain, and your battles has made you the minister that you were meant to be.¬† I know for a fact that God doesn’t allow things to happen in our lives without having something good come from them.¬† If that good thing is that our faith is built, then we are better for it.¬† If that good thing is that our character is stronger, than praise be to Him!¬† If that good thing is that we now rely on the One who gives the strength, then we have come out as winners.

You get it?¬† There is a verse in 2 Timothy that really speaks to me on this.¬† Chapter 3, verse 7 says, “always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.”¬† Is that what we are doing?¬† Always learning, but never able to come to the knowledge of the truth?¬† It is time for that to stop!¬† It is time to come to the knowledge of the truth, once and for all.

My pain and my trials have equipped me for ministry.¬† What I have learned through them and through God’s Word have equipped me for ministry.¬† What you have learned has done the same for you.¬† It is time to stop doubting, to trust in God, to come to the full knowledge of the truth, and to minister as though the end is drawing near.¬† Because brothers and sisters, I assure you the end is indeed drawing nigh.

The very fact that you have come out on this side of your battle, still looking to God as your Source, says that you have endured!¬† Now, there are others out there in need of the same Savior, Healer, Deliverer, and Provider that you’ve been leaning upon.¬† It is time for you to go forth and minister!

Fulfill your ministry,


Giving glory to God!

It occurs to me that I’ve been remiss in giving God glory.¬† Let’s remedy that.

If you’ve followed me for a while, you know that I began having undiagnosable health issues in 2012.¬† The Lord has brought me a long, long way since then and He deserves to be praised!

In the winter of 2016, the Lord led me to a possible diagnosis.  It took a simple pill to test my theory and I found a Dr. who was willing to give it a try.  Within 2 weeks, my constant, chronic pain was gone.  For the first time in almost 5 years, I could barely detect it!  Miracle!!!

I could now function at an almost normal level.  Just amazing!!!!

Unfortunately, the pill that took away my chronic pain increases my migraines about 10-fold, so for the last year or so I have been working with my neurologist to regulate those.¬† I think we’ve finally found a good balance.

I’m not trying to bore you with medical details, as I know everyone has their own.¬† I just want to give God the glory for what He has done for me!

All the prayers that went up for me during the years I was in pain have been answered!  All of the faith that people had in God for me was not in vain!  All of the trust I had in Him as my Healer, Provider, and Deliverer is well-placed!

The answers to our prayers don’t always look the way we envision them.¬† The answers don’t always come when we hope.¬† This does not mean God has left us or isn’t working in our lives.¬† God has plans that we don’t always know or understand.

I can absolutely say to you today that I am much more confident in Him as my Provider than in any other time in my history.¬† I can say with certainty that He most certainly uses our weaknesses to perfect His strength.¬† I know that the woman I am today is directly related to the pain I’ve experienced, and the trust I’ve had to place in my Lord.

I’ve also been able to be used in new ways, due to my experience.¬† I am much more alert to others’ pain, and I can relate in a way that some cannot.¬† I know what to say and what is best left unsaid.¬† God is able to use me in a unique way in the lives of His children now, and for that I can honestly say I am grateful.

So, thank You, Lord, for healing me.¬† Thank You, also, for the lessons I’ve learned along the way.¬† And, as Ps. 119:71 says, “It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I may learn Your statutes.”¬† I love that I¬†know Your Word better today than I have ever before.¬† I love You, my Lord and my God!


Showing up

“And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.”¬† Heb. 10:25

Now there is in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate a pool, which is called in Hebrew, Bethesda, having five porches.¬† In these lay a great multitude of sick people, blind, lame, paralyzed, waiting for the moving of the water.¬† For an angel went down at a certain time in to the pool and stirred up the water then whoever stepped in first, after the stirring of the water, was made well of whatever disease he had.¬† Now a certain man was there had an infirmity thirty-eight years.¬† When Jesus saw him lying there, an knew that he already had been in that condition a long time, He said to him, “Do you want to be made well?”¬† The sick man answered Him, “Sir, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.”¬† Jesus said to him, “Rise, take up your bed and walk.”¬† And immediately the man was made well, took up his bed, and walked.”¬† John 5:2-8

The man had no one to put him in the water.  And yet he was there.  He was present in the place where the miracles happened.

I recently heard about a woman who was avoiding her church because she is going through a hard time in her life right now and when she goes to church it makes her cry.¬† I’ve felt that way before.¬† Sometimes, when times are the toughest, we feel the most like avoiding the house of God.

Friends, it is during those tough times, that we need to be in the house of God the most.¬† We need to show up and be present in the place of miracles.¬† We cannot expect a breakthrough if we avoid the place where they happen.¬† We cannot get the peace that passes understanding if we do not seek out the Peace Giver.¬† The shadow of death will loom so much larger on the outside, but when we enter into God’s presence, we find Him with us.¬† His rod and His staff ever ready to comfort us.¬† His green pastures and restoration of the soul can only be found where He is.

We may cry when we get in church.¬† It’s ok.¬† Church is not a place for perfect people.¬† It is a place for the broken.¬† Like this infirmed man, when we show up at the place where there is healing, restoration, deliverance, comfort, then there are emotions we will naturally go through.¬† But when we hear the Lord tell us to, “Rise, take up our bed, and walk,” it will be so worth it!

Go to church.  Cry if you must, but Go!  Seek the Lord.  Seek your miracle.  Just show up and do not give up.  God will meet you there.

Thankful I showed up,