Yesterday I turned down a job opportunity. To be exact, my husband and I turned down the opportunity to minister in a new state, hundreds of miles away from where we are living now. It’s something we have been praying about since February, and yesterday we officially said no. I knew it was the right decision. He knew it was the right decision. And although I suppose I should have expected it, I wasn’t prepared for the attack that came at me after the phone call ended.
As 2019 rolled around, my husband and I knew that God was preparing us for something new. We knew that He was preparing us for the next thing. When we got the invitation for this ministry opportunity, we couldn’t help but wonder if this was the new thing. There was a nagging feeling; however, that it was not. If it wasn’t, though, what was? So, we kept hanging on, undecided.
Meanwhile, I was sick, sick, and sicker. Currently, I am bed-ridden…well, couch-bound, I’d say, since I am spending my days on the couch instead of the bed. haha. I will be having surgery in 7 days (yes, I’m counting down), but until then, I am trapped, unproductive, not participating in life the way I would like, and in pain.
So, here I am, not attending church, not being “productive”, and not contributing to the world in the ways I would like to, and now I’m turning down an amazing opportunity in ministry. I live to minister. I love to minister. I desire to minister. And now I’m trapped on a couch and saying, “No, thank you,” to this opportunity before me. What is happening? Who am I?
Who am I? That’s the exact question the enemy wanted to attack me with when the phone call ended. If you aren’t going to go minister to these people; if you aren’t going to take this chance, then who are you? If you are just going to be lying around on the couch doing nothing, then how can God even use you? What difference can you even make?
This, my dear friends, is why we need to know what God has said about us. 10 days ago, I got a confirmation that the Lord was calling me to a higher level. Just because I’ve said no to that specific chance does not mean it’s the end of my story. It means God has a different plan for me. There is a different assignment under my name and once I am healed and my training is complete, He will make sure that I am placed there.
I cannot allow the enemy to take captive my thoughts and pull me down now…not after all this time. The Word tells me that I am to demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of Christ, and to take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. It’s up to me to take captive my own thoughts and make them obedient to Christ. Anything that tries to set itself against my knowledge of Christ has got to go!
So, today, if you feel yourself having any thoughts like me: Who am I? What difference can I make anyway? How can God even use me? Then I hope you will demolish those arguments, as well, and take captive your thoughts, too! Satan wants to steal our hopes, destroy our ministries, and kill the people we love by having us neglect to do the ministry we were meant to do because we feel too crippled to do it.
Even from this couch, I can minister. Even from where you are, so can you. Take those thoughts captive and let’s get busy! There are too many souls at stake and there are assignments out there with OUR names on them!