Joel 2:23: “For He has given you the former rain faithfully, and He will cause the rain to come down for you…”
I had the terrible realization this week that I had replaced God as the treasure in my heart.
In May, our daughter was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder. Although, we already suspected it, the diagnosis brings a large and immediate flurry of tasks, paperwork, phone calls, and appointments.
If that wasn’t enough, I personally decided to allow future planning, homeschool curriculum planning, future therapies, and even more to loom over me with urgency. Although these hold a certain level of importance, I honestly didn’t realize how much this had consumed me.
Mt. 6:21 says, “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Mt. 15:18 says, “Those things which proceed from the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man.”
Keeping those scriptures in mind, it became obvious this week, through the words of my mouth, that the Lord was no longer the treasure in my heart. AHHHHHH!!! I had made research and information my new treasure. And I honestly didn’t even realize it had happened.
Looking back, however, I can see the warning signs. I will share those with you in the hopes that I can spare you from doing something similar:
- I was spending more time reading about Autism than I was reading about and reflecting on God’s faithfulness.
- I began to consider myself too weak to care for and teach my daughter. I wasn’t considering the truth, which is that the Lord is my strength and that through Him all things are possible.
- Fear began to drain a lot of my energy, when the Lord clearly gave us a spirit of power and of love and of a sound mind.
- I began trusting in the information I was learning in my research more than I was reminding myself that the Lord supplies all our needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
This scripture in Joel says, “For He has given you the former rain faithfully.” That’s it, isn’t it? He has always been faithful. He will continue to be faithful. He who has begun a good work in us will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.
I’m not saying that the research shouldn’t be done. Information is good, but when it begins to cause fear and doubt, or begins to overshadow the truths of God’s Word, then there is a problem.
I had to repent for making information and worldly ‘facts’ my treasure. I want to encourage you, as well. God is still in control. He still holds the world in His hands, and if He has taken care of you in the past, He will take care of you in the future. He is faithful.