Pr. 9:5: “Come, eat of my bread and drink of the wine I have mixed,” says wisdom.
I am tired this morning. There has been a sad disconnect in one part of my extended family for the last 3 or 4 years, and the last few nights I have had wonderful dreams where that no longer existed. In the mornings; however, I awake to the weight of reality upon realizing that things are not actually so wonderful.
Over the years, this issue is one that I have allowed to cause me to cry, agonize, and even have panic attacks. I have been able to grow in the understanding that the only thing that can truly help is prayer. I have known that I had to turn my family over to God and ask that He be the One to comfort and protect them, and if possible, change their minds. I have also had to turn my own emotions over to Him and learn to truly draw my strength from Him.
Decisions that are out of our control can sometimes be overwhelming and we can feel a range of emotions, from disappointment to anger to devastation. The beauty of having the Lord in our lives; however, is that we have the understanding that the Lord is the One who truly supplies our joy, peace, and strength. After awaking this morning, I was so thankful that God’s Word was waiting for me, to give me what I needed in my moment of heaviness. I am so thankful that I am able to come eat and drink of the goodness of God, His precepts, His love, His guidance, and His wisdom.
What would I do if I didn’t have a Savior upon which I can call? How would I get through this without a High Priest who understands all that I am going through, and is willing and able to give aid when I call upon Him? This situation is beyond me, and without a loving Comforter to come along and walk with me, I would not have any hope of peace within myself, or reconciliation with those that I love so much.
Eating of God’s Word fuels me with the reminder that with God all things are possible. Drinking in His hope, I am refreshed in the fact that He does not lie. I am devouring the promise that the Lord is near to those who have a broken heart. The fact that The Lord is my sun and shield satisfies me like nothing else ever will.
I am thankful for a forgiving God, who made me fearfully and wonderfully. In Him alone am I complete. My Creator made me exactly the way He need me to be and He loves me so much that He sent His Son to die in my place. What an amazing gift! What an awesome God we serve! His faithfulness proves that He will not leave me nor forsake me. In that, I can rest and find true peace.
Feeling much more awake,