Pr. 19:8: “He who gets wisdom loves his own soul; he who keeps understanding will find good.”
It’s ok to worry about your own soul. It’s wonderful to make the time to take care of your self. Feeding yourself wisdom and finding a way to maintain your understanding will bring you good and the benefits will be beyond measure. Allow the Lord to feed you wisdom through any means He can, and then keep it close to you. Pray over it, dwell on it, cultivate it, study it even more, and allow it to grow into true understanding.
God is meant to be our foremost priority in this life. Putting Him and His kingdom first will cause Him to keep His word that all your needs will be taken care of. (Mt. 6:33) Building on the solid rock of the Lord will cause us not to fall. (Mt. 7:24-25) Spending time with the Lord will ensure that Jesus knows us on the day of judgment. (Mt. 7:21-23)
It’s ok to love your soul enough to intentionally seek as much wisdom, knowledge, and understanding as you can. It is good to yearn for your time alone with God. (Ps. 84:2) Be selfish enough to make time just for you and God. Putting Him first will ensure that He will take care of everything else.